This is not on me.
This is handwritingofgod coming into my askbox and attacking and I am just trying to defend myself.
It is not working!
But please direct all complaints to her okay? Okay.
I’m here for all your Winter Soldier Steve heartbreak, ladies, gentlemen and variations thereupon.
HAVE NO FEAR, THE ANGST TRAIN IS HERE ON COMMAND.
WHERE DO THE TRAINS GO, STEVE
This post is a painful mess oh my god.
right i did not mean to start that schush you all and leave me here to cry
I don’t know.
aren’t you funny you punk.
boring incredibly chaste kissing is the only way i know how to live
okay so i woke up this morning and i couldn’t stop thinking about like a skinny!steve/wintersoldier!bucky fantasy au
where bucky is like the god of seasons and he’s all winter soldiery and the earth is always cold and he just gets lonelier and lonelier and so he goes to a forest spirit and asks for a companion and the forest spirit agrees to give him one but it is also using this opportunity to make bucky see what kind of harm the winter brings to the earth and for him to suffer
so the spirit makes steve’s bones from the branches of a willow tree and takes his hair from wheat and his eyes from forget-me-nots and so on and so forth and then trades a bit of steve’s heart for a bit of bucky’s and so when steve awakens for the first time there is warmth and the weather changes to spring because the piece of steve’s heart is warming bucky up
and they become fast friends and little steve teaches bucky how to smile and laugh and as he becomes more like pre-war!bucky the season changes to summer
and of course he and steve run naked in the fields and dance and yell in the rain and steve braids buck’s hair and they fall head over heels for each other and spend the sweltering days kissing and lazily making love in the grass under shady oak trees
and all the while bucky doesn’t have a clue that he is being punished but then one day steve starts to cough and then he can’t breathe and just as the piece of steve’s heart warmed bucky the piece of bucky’s heart has made steve ill and even more frail and bucky worries constantly and with the worry and sadness comes fall and then the winter
soon enough the spring is back and steve is fine but once again by the end of summer he is sick and as the years pass his illness grows worse and worse until one day bucky goes alone to visit the forest spirit
he tells the spirit that his lover is weak and sick and he asks for steve’s well-being but the spirit tells him that he must make a trade for this to be possible
bucky tells the spirit that he is willing to give anything
the spirit tells him that he will offer endless strength and health to steve in exchange for bucky’s arm and his memories of his love for steve
bucky is ready to give his arm but is horrified at the thought of forgetting so he immediately refuses and returns home
but upon arrival steve is worse and so with much thought he gives steve one last kiss, whispers his love to him, and returns to the forest spirit to accept the offer
the spirit takes his arm and replaces it with cold harsh silver and then takes his memories
bucky wakes up shivering and alone
steve wakes up tall and strong and perfect and he waits for bucky but when he doesn’t come home he searches for bucky in the endless winter
when he finally finds him bucky is startled and doesn’t remember steve
but he remembers those forget-me-not eyes
Come on,Rogers,move it!
guys, remember how i can make everything about neuroscience? this scene, though. if steve’s hippocampus — that’s memory storage — is as super as the rest of him the way that the times square exhibit says…it’s actually not that far-fetched to conclude that when steve remembers something, he remembers it like this. like, this might not be an exaggeration. steve might be able to literally watch memories play out in front of him.
his nightmares must be horrible.
things that turn me on: well choreographed hand-to-hand combat scenes
nahhh relax it’s just a bronchitis that i miiiight have protracted a bit i’m just on antibiotics and sick leave now iron man 3 is on tv i am a happy camper who just coughs a bit all’s fine